So, Lizette has had cramps for the past two nights and hasn't slept. Last night she slept off and on, but the night before she didn't go to sleep until 6 a.m. Tucker and I took shifts and had some joint time up with her too.
Let me say. I need my sleep. My stomach gets nauseous and it's so not fun being awake at 3 am, not knowing when it will end. I feel all weak and I can't think right... (do you feel sorry for me yet?)
Well, what's harder to handle than the crying baby and the sleep deprivation is a spouse that's also "losing it." I get so frustrated because Tucker gets angry with the situation and then I'm dealing with trying to calm him down and the baby too.
Then something happened that caused me to see things more clearly. Tucker went to the room to go to sleep, and I settled down for a long night, holding Lizette. As I saw him leaving the room I started crying along with Lizette. Tucker came back in to ask me something and I saw that I was losing it.
It's the same thing... I cry, he gets angry... we're both losing it though. His reaction when I'm crying is the same reaction I have when he gets upset. I don't like to see him angry, he hates to see me cry. Both situations don't make the crying baby situation any better. But, what are we to do? It's just not human to be reasonable, calm, cool, collected, when you stay up until 6 a.m.
It was helpful for me to realize though that me crying and Tucker getting angry are the same. I can't really get frustrated when I'm doing the same thing.
So now, she's taking a nap (poor thing's so tired from being up 2 nights in a row), and I'm going to try to get some sleep in too. I've done enough thinking for the day, and if I think anymore I might start to wonder how tonight's gonna go....
